Week 41: Nov 20th – 26th, 2023 // What even is “the right path?”
Who else struggles with the feeling of being or doing enough? Being unemployed when you’re travelling and staying in one place for an extended period can leave you questioning all your life decisions and the reasoning for existence. But maybe that’s just the point of your 20’s? I recently came across a post that said something along the lines of “your 20’s are spent questioning whether you should be travelling the world, starting your own business, settling down, moving to an off-grid property, and living off your own resources, building a career, going back to school, or moving abroad to start a new life entirely.” And I’d say that’s pretty accurate.
Your 20’s feels like a never-ending existential crisis and wondering if you’re ever travelling on the “right” path. You bounce between feeling like you’re falling behind and not doing enough, to feeling like you’re on top of the world and capable of anything, while living your dream life.
This week has involved many moments feeling it all. I did my best to focus my time on some more personal projects, and how I want that to develop moving forward into the next year. I got to upgrade my 8 year old laptop finally, I worked on more photography projects with Sea Shepherd, I got in a few more workouts, I worked on more graphic design projects for Luminous Studios, I spent more time planning out my days, I finally got some filming done for a few videos, posted on YouTube for the first time (more on that to come), went to a small concert, and went to a driving range for the first time.
I also spent an equal amount of time laying around doing nothing, reading, watching movies, and allowing myself to sit in the hard emotions that popped up. I’ve spent a lot of my life learning how to rationalize everything, but sometimes things can’t be, nor should they be rationalized – and that’s okay. Sometimes things feel hard, and you don’t know why, and you just need a good cry to let them release. The best thing you can do for yourself in those moments is give yourself the space to let the feelings pass through you, rather than find a way to explain why they’re there in the first place.
When you allow yourself to release rather than rationalize, you free up space and energy for the things you actually want in your life; and you give yourself the ability to navigate your life with a little more patience, grace, and understanding. Now don’t let me fool you… I’ve still got a long way to go before I’ve mastered this – but it’s something I found come up a lot for myself this week, and I’m learning.
Remember to be kind to yourself and,
Stay passionate and curious.
Hunter💛
